God is AWESOME!!!!

So last night....was one of the (insert words)* nights of my life. I had been trying to get a hold of missy for a while and we finally caught each other online. I asked her after some small talk if she'd been thinking about "us" and she said she had. She said that she didn't see it going anywhere. Completely ok because of the distance situation and a lot of other stuff. she then told me that she had met someone. She told me that she was so scared to tell me and that she didn't wan't me to hurt. The fact is that my feelings for her have been slowly fading into the background and dissappearing. There's someone here that has caught my attention. I told her that and she kept apologizing, but we both had a sense of peace about it. She's still a good friend and she's still gonna come out here and visit. I was gonna go home for spring break and surprise her but i think i'm gonna try to go to england on a mission trip with my PCM. God'll let me know. So now missy has a boyfriend and i'm hanging out with someone. I'm not even going to talk about that at all for this year at least. Rebounding is BAD!!! So i signed up for classes next semester. I'm only doing 16 instead of 17. HA my second semester junior year i have to take 19 hours. i'll die. but God's always there. I'm so glad that i can rely on him for absolute truth and clarity. Not everything will be clear to me and i'm ok with that. He's the one with the plan and who am i that i could possibly try to change or alter that. In his perfect timing and in His will, i have never been happier. Just sitting here, watching him work in me and in the lives of others. I'm awestruck at his work. Totally blown away. please pray for my decision to go to europe and that if He wants me to go, He'll provide the money. it's not as expensive as going to the philippines but it's still up there for me. well huh I'm done. Thanks to you all for praying. You are so awesome. May God pour out his spirit on your lives to enable you for great things. May he open your eyes to your mistakes and break you if you need breaking. Always remember that YOU need to sit back and relax because HE has everything under control no matter what!

*cant even describe the feelings i had